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Im venturing out, just bought a tattoo kit and im really excited to start practicing :excited: also gonna be doing more drawing and stuff.  too many hobbies!! what to do. 3 vehicles, 3 pets, drums, parkour, ever growing music collection, and guns lol not to mention a full time job, and then trying to fit my art in there somewhere... luckily i dont have a girlfriend to take up more time lol but i do have friends... no really i do.  But i am really excited about this tattoo thing so i will make it work. will be posting stuff when it happens

it says embarrassed at the bottom but so many more emotions. frustration, happy, sad, excitement, and love? i dont know what to think anymore what does it mean when your heart starts racing? dont know what to say, and want to talk so badly but are to fuckin scared... i hate it. im so awkward and shy. so many blown chances. will there be any more? probably not deserving anyway. want to move on, dont know if i can. i dont know what else to do. losing sleep, cant sleep.  haha im so lost :stupidme:

blahhh... not really living, kind of just existing right now.  dont know what to look forward to. kinda lost i guess.  same things every day and im kinda goin insane.  wont give up though thats too easy.  wont give up but dont know which way to go.  need something to make me want to get up every morning.  did i bring this upon myself? could be, might be what i deserve. i dont know, either way i wont complain.  i'll keep going on though, its gotta get better right? i'll keep trying to find what im looking for... whatever it is.